Last night, I couldn’t fall asleep. I have so many things on my mind. I can’t even begin to derive a clear topic to write about. It’s just messy up there.
And it’s not even bad things – not at all. It’s all of the things I want to get involved with in my church back home. It’s telling the influential adults from my childhood what I feel like God has called me to do. It’s all of the opportunities I might have in the field of education. It’s how I want to keep all of the special people in my life close to me, no matter what. It’s how I want to share with my family what God has been doing in my life and be a positive light for them.
It’s getting the best out of the short time I have left in Columbia.
You know, blogging is a form of journalism called citizen journalism. I learned that in my Principles of American Journalism class today, and it’s going to be on our next exam. I won’t forget it.
When I transitioned from my cheerleading chapter to my journalism chapter, I wrote about it and I shared it in my high school’s newspaper. This blog is so many things all at once, but perhaps the most important part of it is that it’s my outlet to connect the dots between journalism and education.
Today I began to wonder what my teachers growing up will think when I tell them that I too want to teach. Did they know it all along? My mom has made it very clear to me that you can tell when someone is a teacher (she teaches kindergarten). Teachers shine in their own special, inviting way.
I’ve been on this roller coaster ride diving up and down, pleasing others and rebelling, and I think the ride is almost over. Kristin and I are still reading Changes That Heal by Dr. Henry Cloud, and today we read about taking responsibility for who you are and discovering who you’re not. Others can’t take responsibility for your attitudes and behaviors because that crosses boundaries; you have to own who you are and who you’re not in order to grow.
“Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow,” says James 1:2-3.
I love it when I forget what K-Love’s daily verse is, and then when I look it up again, it connects to what I write at the end of the day. That’s just one of the many reasons why I put my faith in God.
God already connects all of the dots in my life, even though I use writing to see and understand it for myself. Through the mess of my many thoughts, He is clarity.
SIDE NOTE: As I finished my final read-through before posting today, I realized that today marks the halfway point of my challenge! WOW!