I’ve had it on my heart for a few days now to write something related to the topic of my future husband. I thought maybe I might write him a letter telling him how excited my 18-year-old self is to start a life with him, but something about that idea didn’t click enough for me to actually do it. A good friend of mine whom I grew up with told me once that the guy I’m meant to be with reads everything I’ve ever written and that he’s never missed a single article (this was back when I was big in the newspaper business). I haven’t forgotten about that statement… It’s one of the short, poignant conversations that will always stick with me.
So I’m 18. Why do I care so much about who I’m going to marry? I think it stems back to the whole hopeless romantic thing, and I’m a college girl. Aren’t we all secretly trying to get our MRS degrees?!
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think (at points in the past) that I was going to marry guys from several of my early relationships. But that was all BFILWJ: Before Falling In Love With Jesus.
I always knew you were “supposed” to love God and Jesus. God put you here and Jesus died for your sins. Obviously you’re supposed to love Them. Oh, and then there’s the Holy Spirit too, making the Trinity. I never knew exactly what that meant. It wasn’t until my freshman year of college (NOW) that I realized what love and the Trinity really mean for me as a Christian.
Let’s look at 1 John 4:7-13, which says, “Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed His love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and His love is made complete in us. This is how we know that we live in Him and He in us: He has given us of his Spirit.”
That explains everything. God loves His children so, so, SO much, and that’s why He sacrificed His Son, Jesus, to save us from our sins. That’s why we praise and adore Him. And Jesus… In my smaller Bible study last Thursday, we talked about Jesus being a role model to men and the perfect Prince Charming to women. We’re all meant to fall in love with our Savior FIRST so that we then know how to love each other. And through all of this Great Love, the Holy Spirit lives in us.
That’s everything I was missing the in princess fairytale I dreamt up for myself.
Now I know better, and I can’t get it off my mind. I know God is working in me right now to make me the woman I’m meant to be to serve alongside my future husband, and I am SO thrilled. I still struggle with patience, but I know that God’s time is the perfect time, and that’s something I’m learning to trust.
In my Bible Study we’ve been reading When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy, which I strongly recommend to the young women out there who don’t know where their love lives are going. I still don’t know where mine is going, and it is so comforting to know that God is the one in control. All we have to do is fall in love with Jesus.
So to my future husband, whom I’m assuming will wind up reading this blog post at some point, I am so excited to know you as the man God created just for me. I can’t wait to bond over our pasts and create our future together. You’ll be the head of our household, and I’ll be the heart, and we’ll show our child(ren) what it means to love and be loved. Until then, know that I think about you everyday, and I am allowing God to change my heart to be ready for you and able to love Him first.
And one more thing to add that I think is very relevant to Day 14’s post: “Fall Asleep” by Jars of Clay. It came on iTunes Radio’s Best of Christian Music 2013 station at the gym today, and I was so captivated. I won’t say too much… Just listen below.