Day 20. Just 10 days left.

It’s different being at home doing this challenge. Temptations are definitely less tempting (almost nonexistent), but the people here don’t know this side of me like many of my college friends do.

“Jessica, I didn’t know you were religious.”

Well, honestly, until this challenge, I didn’t know I was either. I didn’t know what my beliefs actually meant for my life, and I didn’t know how to live them out.

I’m trying.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will,” says Romans 12:2.

God is renewing my mind. I’m reading things and having conversations that are making things click inside of me. Things are happening to me that are changing me from the inside out.

I’m still discovering what God’s will for me is. I’m going on my second college visit (something I should have done far more than even just one year ago) this week, and there’s part of me that thinks it’s God’s will for me to be at that college and that maybe I should’ve been there all along.

And was Mizzou God’s will or mine? I still don’t know.

My mom brought up a good point about listening to God. As I wrote a few posts ago, my car’s radio doesn’t pick up the station for K-Love in Columbia, so I don’t listen to Christian music when I’m driving. Maybe that’s when God has been trying to tell me something.

It’s time I start listening to Him when He’s communicating with me, not just when I want to hear Him.