A month ago tomorrow, I wrote myself a love letter. I needed it. I lost who I was and I was out of places to run and vices to choose.

That was before I decided to do K-Love’s 30 Day Challenge, but nonetheless, it was the first step.

Tomorrow, April 1, I will open that tear-stained letter. I don’t love anything like I love tear-stained letters. I hope to make writing myself love letters a habit on the first of every month.

Again, it’s been three days since I last posted. I worked double shifts on Friday and Saturday, and on Sunday I packed up and headed back to COMO for the final stretch of my Mizzou journey.

Where has the time gone?

During the past three days, I’ve been thinking about what to write, and I’ve been thinking about what this challenge even is anymore. It’s a lot less about only listening to Christian music for 30 days, that’s for sure.

This challenge has become almost like a self-check.

Not everyone knows how to love him or herself; in fact, I don’t know if I’ve ever met anyone who truly does. I know I don’t, but I’ve really been trying to see myself for who I am and what I’m capable of. So many of us go our entire lives without knowing who God intended for us to be.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: I’m 18-years-old. I’m young and dumb, and I don’t have anyone to please or anyone to be but myself.

God brings us into this world and takes us out of it ALONE for a reason.

Love who you are and live like you mean it. God will take care of the rest. Actually, He already has.

Just listen. And trust Him.